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Post by Chester on Apr 17, 2015 23:48:00 GMT
Chester gave a small smile, feeling a heavy weight lift from her chest, and she knew something changed here today... It was worth leaving Gensho alone to look after Dranar for the day. Moving from the hug slightly, Chester wiped away the few escaped tears from Akvan's face. "If I am to give you the chance though, to make things right... You have to promise me one thing besides no more lies..." Chester knew she couldn't just jump back into things, and it would take time for things to fully heal over, but she wanted Akvan to promise one ore thing before all else. "Promise me, you wont focus all attention on keeping everyone else safe... Keep yourself safe too, because I promise you one thing... If you leave the world like that again, I wont hesitate to follow you. I felt that pain once, and it broke me, I refuse to let myself feel that again... And to make sure that, I need you protecting yourself as well... No more suicidal missions..." Chester didn't want Akvan to blind himself from his own protection, she saw what that did, and it almost killed her. "Will you promise me that?" This was probably the most emotion Chester had ever shown someone that past seventeen years, even after Ru's, Kaku's, Gensho's and Nanari's pestering... So when they find Chester was willing to give another chance to Akvan, and how that transpired... Well she knew she was in for a talk from the others, some different to others, Ru being a prime example.
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Post by Flood/Akvan on Apr 18, 2015 21:24:10 GMT
To think, only a few minutes ago, Akvan still thought his chances to change everything was hopeless, and that he'd die before the day he'd get a chance to make it up to Chester of all people. But perhaps there was still hope for these things. Hope... that was something mentioned in the letter. Akvan smiled, there wasn't anything in life he wouldn't find help for from that letter. Perhaps that was Onrah's reasoning for it. The Sun child almost chuckled when Chester showed a side of affection, making sure to keep back anymore tears as she did so. He was curious to know what other promise he needed to keep, though Akvan was certain no matter what, he'd promise to stick to it. Akvan's eyes did drop though. What Chester asked did show that she cared for Akvan, but he still had to think on this. If only for a second, because the idea of any kind of repeat of the night at the Tower, Akvan was already certain that he'd repeat his actions again, without hesitation. But, he did have something that made his head nod. "You know... when t-the tower was finally clear, I was so tempted to just... die. B-but I remembered w-what death did to y-you, and my brother." Akvan took a deep breath, sitting back on his fake legs. "So, I will promise you... Whatever the s-situation is, I will keep e-everyone safe, myself included, and I will t-think, instead of believing death is the only way." Akvan took a big sigh, glad they'd finally reached somewhere, together. Rather than how it was. Akvan's entire opinion on having a secret identity, hiding from his family and loathing Mujihi for giving his secret away was gone now. And he felt amused over much of an idiot he'd been, to ever think that time healed anything. People healed people, that was something the Sun Child was gradually learning. He almost smiled, clearing his throat. "A-and... Umm.. Another thing," Akvan added, rubbing his neck awkwardly, "I promise to... try and stop stuttering... if it really annoys you."
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Post by Chester on Apr 19, 2015 20:51:14 GMT
Chester cold tell that was all she was getting as a promise from him. But it was enough for now, it meant they could start to fix what was broken, even if the road ahead was long and saddening. Moving so that she was sitting in a comfier position, she gave a slight chuckle at what he said next, spending a few moments contemplating over it. "Don't worry about it. Stuttering is what makes you... Well you, alongside everything else, it would be too weird if you didn't stutter." Giving Akvan a small smile, Chester hugged her knee's to her chest. "If you don't mind me asking, or knowing, What? What exactly happened? You know seventeen years ago... Mo never gave details, and I was too upset at the time to pry for them..." This was something Chester finally wished to know, something she had always wondered even if it was tucked away in the back of her mind, and after everything, she just wanted some details. "You don't have to go into detail, not at all. I just, would like to know a little more, have some light spread on the situation..."
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Post by Flood/Akvan on Apr 19, 2015 21:31:53 GMT
Chester's answer did get a chuckle from Akvan. Well, he thought it was a hard promise to keep to. Akvan's way of speaking had always been nervous, and even when Flood it was hard to cover up his shaky voice. It was almost relieving that he didn't have to work on that, amongst the other things he promised to stick to. Akvan moved himself to sit down properly, or run the risk of making his legs stiff and leaving him stuck for an hour on the floor or something. And with Chester's question, the Sun child felt the need to get comfy. "Well I suppose I-I should begin by saying... the old me, t-that body wasn't mine. It was Shinda's, the one I once told you was an e-evil... split personality of mine." Akvan began, sighing, not to vent out fear, but out of relief of how easy it felt to simply... be truthful.
"And Shinda wasn't... i-isn't, a normal Demon either, he's the worst Demon e-ever to have lived. M-mo told me that Shinda was the reason for the war so long ago, and returns now... to destroy everything." Akvan nodded his head slowly, "And me? W-well I'm something called a Sun Child, something created by the Sun Goddess. Mo forced my mind inside of the n-new Shinda, so that I could be used to stop him from doing what he wanted." Akvan dropped his head, almost ashamed to admit his next bit. "Honestly... when I heard that... I w-wasn't really, me... I d-didn't take it well. All I thought I lived for disappeared, and I thought the only use left for me, w-was to make sure Shinda died right there and then." Akvan chuckled to himself shrewdly. "I think back now... a-and after reading Onrah's letter, I feel like what I did was... s-stupid." With that Akvan stopped, glancing to the ground nearby as he didn't want to add more, but was ready to continue, if Chester asked.
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Post by Chester on Apr 19, 2015 21:44:29 GMT
Hearing something like that was a lot to take in to say the least, but it was soothing to know Akvan was willing to share it, so Chester wouldn't pry for more details, at least, not yet she wouldn't. And expanding on that, made her realise a little better why Akvan did what he did, even if it hurt a little, both admitting and knowing that. "Your right... It was stupid of you... A body doesn't make the person, its how one acts, its, difficult to explain... But, just because you were in a different body, one not your own... Didn't make you a different person, its who you personally grew up to be... You still had your own mind when separated right? That's proof right there... I wish I was there to explain that you before everything happened, it may have given you peace of mind..." Taking a breath Chester continued, letting a truth out that she's surprised she even though of. "And, I cant fully hate what you did, no one could... I mean sure, I hate it, im still hurt by it and it will take a long while for me to forget and forgive it... But, you got to look at what it caused as well... Hada, Labari... The Mun Clan. Perhaps things would have been too different if you didn't do what you did, and Exitium would have won..."
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Post by Flood/Akvan on Apr 19, 2015 22:31:00 GMT
Akvan was relieved things were able to stop there. He'd explain even more, over time, and after he himself could understand it properly. Seventeen years down the line and Akvan wasn't sure he himself understood much about himself. "I suppose I felt l-like... I'd cheated everyone in life. Being there... but n-not being there. Everyone was caring for an e-evil Demon possessed by some spirit." Still all so confusing. In a way, Akvan's position now was no different than the one he was in before. His mind and memories was Akvan's, and his body and purpose was Flood's. But unlike being merged with Shinda, there was a chance for Akvan and Flood to coexist, be the same... something Akvan didn't know if he could do before. Akvan smiled weakly, "It's wasn't your fault, b-back then I'm sure it was no one's fault... but his. I-I don't even blame Mo for any of this." The Sun child went a little red after what sounded like a... compliment, from Chester. "M-maybe... and I'd never say I would c-change things so that I never met any of them, my sisters or the clan... but I just wish I could have... included everyone else too. I-I could have helped you through... everything, all the things I once experienced." Akvan felt his eyes water, closing them before anything happened. "W-when I was told that you'd... taken the burden of my old powers... it made me want to h-help so much. B-but I still thought staying away would be best. C-chester I'm so sorry, for making you do that alone. For hiding in the background l-like a coward... I-I won't let you go on like that alone again... I p-promise."
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Post by Chester on Apr 20, 2015 19:57:56 GMT
Chester didn't exactly know what happened, but she was sure whatever Mo did... He had his reasons, no matter what they were, be selfish, or selfless. But she could just be basing that opinion on bias as he used up power to help her when she most wanted and needed it. And Chester had seen Shinda, knew what he could do, and she hated him for what she heard alone, let alone actually come into proper contact with, beside that slight time seventeen years ago... Rubbing the back of her neck slightly, Chester looked up to Akvan, letting him speak before shedding a few tears herself, and mustering up everything inside her to do that next thing she did... Shimming next to Akvan, Chester took hold of one of his hands and rested her head on his should, just as she once did on top of a hospital roof. "Its okay to cry... Trust me, I haven't felt more relief doing so myself... And I may still hate you for what you've done... But your here now, and not leaving again right? Just, make it up to us now... Let us back in and slowly we will do the same to you, because you know, past is in the past, its defied who we are, but not who were going to become... Damn... Sentimental shit, I haven't given advice like that for years..." Chester gave a slight chuckle, really feeling more at ease then she has done for the same amount of years as spreading sentimental shit...
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Post by Flood/Akvan on Apr 20, 2015 20:56:40 GMT
Akvan didn't know how many promises he could make, but he would be determined to keep them all, because he wouldn't get a chance like this again. Pushing his hands up to his eyes, Akvan dried up what was there, hoping that it would be the last of it. But no, Akvan almost found himself crying again with Chester's permission, though what really made his emotions shatter was how close this felt. How it reminded him of that time, feeling so loved for the first time. What Akvan would give, to feel like that again. And it made him tear up, perhaps thinking that he did still have a chance to fix it all. Akvan's shaky hand stopped when Chester's was wrapped around it, pulling the weak muscles to wrap around her hand in return. He chuckled a little, sniffing as he carefully leaned his head on Chester's. "I feel like I-I should have run out by now." Akvan commented, feeling like all he done in the past month other than sleep off wounds was cry. "Never." Akvan replied quickly, "I'm n-never leaving again." Beginning to slowly smile, Akvan had always longed for a day h could receive advice again, and not have to dish it out. "You a-are always so good at giving a-advice though. I tried doing the same... b-but I suppose having a way with words is a n-natural talent." Akvan replied, hoping Chester didn't stop her ways, now that they seemed to be coming back. "I am h-here now, and I'll make it up to you... to everyone. D-do more than just be here, I w-want to help. Chester, a-anything you want me to do, p-please just ask."
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Post by Chester on Apr 24, 2015 18:26:27 GMT
Chester know how it felt to cry until it seemed no tears were left. Hell, she has done so many, many times when away from everyone else, even more so recently, like she was finally letting all her pent up feeling out... But it meant she also knew how it felt holding them in, and as much as she dislikes Akvan for what he did, she didn't want him to suffer in that way. "Trust me, tears don't disappear no matter how much you cry, but it also helps, even if it gets it out the system for a bit." Gripping his hand tighter, Chester sighed. "Not exactly, its more, I know what to say because I've either lived through it, or know how the other feels... Its nice, knowing I can help others, because I don't want them living through the same shit I did... Yano?" And it was, knowing Chester's words may stop someone from hurting like she did... Did more for her then anything else. She thought over the offer, and there was only one thing she could really think of to ask... "These powers... My job... I struggle controlling them, as I didn't have the previous owner to teach me... I don't want my emotions randomly killing anyone else like that day Flood, well you and me first spoke again... Help me get the under control?"
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Post by Flood/Akvan on Apr 24, 2015 18:58:44 GMT
Akvan sighed, holding back his opinion on being called Flood. He didn't mind, he'd decided long ago that going by either name suited him. But he did want to go by Akvan more than before, show those from his old life that he was still... him. But Akvan couldn't complain, whatever name Chester decided to call him, it was better than receiving silent glares or words of hate by a long shot. He hummed a little when thinking over Chester's request. It was certainly something he had the power to do, he was just reminiscing over the times in the past he'd been desperate to give Chester such help, when he hid instead of helping. "W-well, realistically, I don't have a c-clue on how to control those powers. Y-you remember how bad at magic I was, r-right?" Akvan began, not able to stop the smile on his face when he felt Chester's hand more over his own.
"W-well, I discovered the reason for that... w-when I would borrow your magic. I c-can easily copy other magic n-now, if only for a few minutes. B-but in the past, I'd copy that d-disease magic to help when y-you... didn't want to use them."
Akvan hoped they could glaze over that, as he didn't know how Chester would take Akvan borrowing her magic. Akvan looked at his free hand. "F-feeling the magic in my own body f-felt so free and easy. It made me realise that before... then, I n-never got control like Shinda could b-because the magic wasn't mine." He glanced to Chester, "It's sort of the s-same thing for you... Mo took the powers, b-but Shinda held onto r-rights to the magic, making it unstable." The Sun Child was hesitant to use his magic, after everything he'd been through and the pain he still felt in his hands. But for Chester, a little pain was worth it to help out. Akvan had to move position, knelling to face Chester instead. He blinked, turning his special vision on to observe Chester's soul. "S-stabilising your magic should b-be easy... a-after that, all it t-takes is to learn h-how to use it, w-w-which I can also h-help with." Akvan stated. In a way, he was a medic just like Nanari, when exposed to his specific trade, Akvan could turn into a mode of helping. Where Nanari dealt with wounds and sickness, Akvan dealt with magical problems, when his Sun child powers could be used to their best of abilities.
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Post by Chester on Apr 24, 2015 19:13:06 GMT
Chester had always wondered why sometimes a small weight a guilt was lifted from her shoulders... She guessed its because she didn't care before, but now she realised it must have been Akvan helping out, and though she wished he told her, she was grateful all the same. Looking up to Akvan, everything he said made sense, and she was glad she couldn't control them just because she failed to do so, assuming his theory was right. Chester got into a comfier position as Akvan moved to face her, while she took a deep breath and looked into his eyes, she could see something in them, but couldn't place what it was, what she could see. Grabbing both of Akvan's hands, Chester gave them a little squeeze. "What you have said makes sense... But I can feel the slight tremble in your hands... If your not better, if your still in pain, I can last a bit longer... I've put up with the powers like this for seventeen years, I don't think waiting for you to get better will be that much of a difference... Don't go hurting yourself for my sake, just knowing you can help is enough for now..."
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Post by Flood/Akvan on Apr 24, 2015 19:54:17 GMT
Akvan was almost going to work on the magic there as soon as he'd analysed Chester's soul. He didn't even think on how it might feel, pain wise, to do so. Which might have been a bad thing. After promising to look after himself, Akvan had almost forgot completely about himself when offering to help someone else. It would seem keeping himself from lying wouldn't be the hardest promise to keep. Stopping to look up at Chester when she grabbed his hands, Akvan smiled softly. "It's alright... a-after all, it's not like I'm holding up a t-tower this time." Akvan tried to reassure her, trying and failing to stop the shivering in his hands to give Chester peace of mind. Thinking hard on it, Akvan nodded a little. "F-fixing the magic shouldn't cause me much p-pain, but if it g-gets too much... I'll s-stop and wait until I can try again, ok?" He offered, before taking no more thought on it. Akvan took one hand free from Chester's, hand shaking even more as he released a tiny stream of Light Shadow magic. Akvan concentrated hard, hand beginning to tingle in pain as he send the mist into Chester, much like Oblivia magic, only without any foul affects. He got just to a point in fixing Chester's magic before feeling a small snap in his finger. Wincing, he stopped the magic flow and pulled his hand back. Smiling through the pain, Akvan kept his hand still. "I've d-done about half of it. I-it's stable, but not permanent. U-until I can fix it completely, it would be b-best not to use." Akvan said in a shaky tone, clutching his hand as he felt for the source of damage. It sounded like a finger had broken, which could be healed later if so.
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Post by Chester on Apr 24, 2015 20:05:52 GMT
Chester knew what he was trying to do, and it wasn't working, if anything, it made things worse, as he could cause problems to himself that were from said tower, and she didn't want that. But giving Akvan a little trust in his ability, Chester agreed to him stopping if it gets too much. "Fine, but the second it begins to hurt okay? No, I can last a little longer business." Trusting Akvan, Chester closed her eyes as he did what he needed to do... Knowing that it wasn't Oblivia magic, but still not wanting to watch the similar thing enter her body. Taking slow calming breaths, Chester eventually opened her eyes, not feeling much different, but magic energy feeling a little more free to what it was. Looking to Akvan, Chester gave a small smile before shaking her head and bringing his hand close to hers. "Thanks, but what part of stop before hurting yourself didn't you understand?" Feeling the broken bone lightly, Chester knew it was a simple enough fix, she herself had had many before, both as a human, and as a Demon, so it shouldn't be that bad. "Easily fixable, though I suggest making sure it wont bend while its like this..."
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Post by Flood/Akvan on Apr 24, 2015 20:53:59 GMT
Akvan half smiled, getting used the pain easily compared to everything else he'd put up with. Though, the sudden affect did make it harder to bare. "I... didn't think it would be so sudden." He admitted, wanting to clutch the source of pain, though knew better. There was the opportunity to fully stabilise Chester's power, after all, Akvan had another hand that wasn't broken. But the chances of that happening now that Chester was aware of the results of Akvan using magic right now, he doubted he wouldn't complete this job for a little while. He smiled slightly, "I-I'll be fine, are you alright? I've not done this s-since I helped Hada unlock her magic. I-if it hurt, let me know." Akvan replied, carefully moving his good hand towards Chester's, holding it weakly but affectionately. Akvan's eyes moved, wondering if his work had actually done anything. He was so desperate to make a difference, and fast. But Akvan's slowly healing condition would make it hard to do any fixing between others and the sinful man for now. So any chance Akvan got to help from now on, no matter his condition he wanted to do it.
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Post by Chester on Apr 24, 2015 21:18:12 GMT
Chester briefly wondered if she was forgiving him too quickly, letting herself become comfortable with him so sudden. But thinking back to what he's done, and his watching of her as Flood... Made Chester realise he must have been through just as much as she did, and she was willing to let things go as they go... No longer having to hide anything from him. Smiling slightly, squeezing his good hand affectionately. "Didn't hurt at all... I can feel a slight difference, like my magic is a little more free, in a good way..." Chester wasn't planning on testing it out anytime soon though. Kissing Akvan's injured hand briefly, "sure your okay? It wont do you any good to overuse magic and strength while recovering, and im sure if Nanari found out she would have a fit... At both me and you." Chuckling slightly, she knew Nanari would be more pleased then anything, though her concern would shine through more. And Chester needed to get one last thing off her chest. "Oh one more thing... Im, sorry, for how I've been acting, and for slapping you back then... I just needed to let you know I regret that...Well, now I do, back then I was glad I got to do that... Yano..."
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